As you may, or may not, have noticed, I took an unplanned break from the blog. I spent my summer and fall nannying my two favorite little girls. I focused a little less on cancer and more on the direction God is leading me. I'm sure you're already aware, but let me remind you...God works things out in His own timing, not ours! Braden and I are currently responding to what God is showing us and I am excited to unpack it with you over the next few weeks and months. For now, I will keep it short and sweet.
In terms of a cancer update, I've steered clear of saying much on any social media outlet. Not because there is anything wrong, but out of exhaustion. It was beginning to feel like cancer was consuming all of me. Over the years, I have always tried to avoid letting one thing define me. I've felt that if I latch on to one thing then I prevent growth in my life because I am nothing more than a cancer patient...parentless...a wife...etc. Now that I've had my time away to work through and define less with this circumstance, I am happy to say my scans have continued to show no new growth. My body has, by the grace of God, continued to respond to my medication Alectinib. This February will mark two years of treatment success. I will go next week to get my three month scans. I pray for continued good news but also have found comfort in accepting that it will change when God intends for it to. That may be next week, next month, or a year from now. It took me a while (almost two years) to fully accept that I do not have control when it comes to this. I've found comfort in acknowledging I will go through harsher treatment at some point but feel God will see me through it. I've found even greater comfort in knowing that when it is my time, I have a mother waiting with arms wide open to welcome me to what is next. Until then, I am focusing on each day being a gift from God. I am working on being less focused on my own achievements and more consumed in His.
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